Sunday, May 30, 2010
I had a dream last night
that I'd asked my auntie buddy to buy me smokes
i want smokes so bad.
i'm stuck n a terrible cycle of eat eat eat eat
there's just food everywhere that tastes good so i eat it
and i dont stop
nothing can stop me
how do i stop ?
i'm getting scared. =[
i just don't know how to pull myself out of this.
And I don't know how to stop crying
over my lack of smokes.
All i want is to curl up on my couch with a good book,
a cup of chai tea,
and a fucking cigarette.