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I want nothing more than to be that sexy, moody, artistic waif, lounging in a coffeeshop writing poetry, existing off of black coffee and cigarettes.

Blaaaaahhhhh. =[

Sunday, June 20, 2010

I don't even know what to say.
i'll just post a list maybe.

- I'm really hoping i didn't fail,
but attempting to ignore prior distractions so i could study did not help.
not even the 5hour energy drink i drank,
or sitting in front of my computer staring blankly at the screen for hours.
please cross your fingers for me that i didn't fail.
i just don't need to hear shit if i fail anything.

- Me and S are still the same.
I adore him,
he makes me happy,
i make him happy,
pretty good.

- I've been eating shit.
I was down to 123,
and then i got to 125,
and then i went through a stint where i legit did not want to eat.
and now all of a sudden i'm like hungry all the time now

oh it's the 20th.
i'm probably PMSing.
least that explains life.

- No more classes.
Bio exam on Monday,
French on Friday,
then it's just the summer.

- I still haven't gotten a fucking job.

- I dyed my hair pink and blue,
and it ran so it's pink and blue and purple.
i likes it.

i mean it's just a tiny bit around the piercing.

- I can't stop thinking about otherC,
and it's driving me fucking nuts.
I keep thinking about him and seeing a status on FB,
or i see a video we did,
or pictures,
and i just break down and start crying again.

I don't want him entirely out of my life,
but It's not as if i can go back and tell him i want him there at this point.
he'll just turn it all around and make me want to die again.

- I'm so so so tired.
but again i think that's the PMSing.
I'm scared to check if i've gone above 127 from today.
I have to start exercising,
i'll have nothing better to do.

- Me and W are going to join yoga this summer

- Oh PS, W and her fake-friend who used her for foreve r
and totally hated me
are not friends anymore,
W has finally had enough of her user bitchy bullshit.
like seriously,
i've never seen a girl take more advantage of someone who loves them.

anyways me and W started hanging a bit more,
and she basically told me that girl was the reason we didn't hang out much
and she totally misses me too
so we're going to CEAP in september too,
we're gonna try and hang more =]

- But myeah that's my shtufss.
not too much new.
I need to get a fucking job.

I miss you girls =[