Hahahahaaaaa. Fuck.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Sooo i accidentally said too much i think
and put myself pretty close to the red zone
where mom is gonna be onto my eating.


so it's still only like day 2 of the liquid fast for me

and we were all talking about dieting
(my mom is always dieting)
and i was saying oh for my dahlias i was supposed to go on a liquid diet for 2 weeks
they've been so swollen

and mom was like you're not going on a liquid diet.

and i was like oh gosh no
i've just been eating less chewy foods

trying to throw her off the scent of my actual liquid diet.
x.x

FUCK ME
haha she's terrible.

i don't know if i can make this fast last another day
somebody might notice if i eat soup another day in a row
nana is going to notice if i go another day without breakfast

blechhh i might make 3 days if i'm lucky.

but i don't want to eat really =[

once i start eating again i'm gonna not be able to fucking stop !

blaaaaahh.

Blech.

Didn't feel hungry today.

ate a can of mushroom soup today anyways.
i ate the mushrooms,
it was too annoying to avoid them.
it's probably cheating on my fast,
but they were tiny,
so unless Adeline disagrees ?
i'll let it slide.


had crazy energy today.
tackled a unit in socio,
plan on getting some french done,
cleaned and organized my trailer
(took 2 hours ffs.)
and then the office took an hour.


mommy is here,
she came to visit because Dee pulled an LG stunt
and they had to have a family "intervention".
mom's going to the SOS tomorrow
so she can get Dee in programs and counselling.

again,
i find it ironic that all the focus is always on her xD
but whatever.
i'm the eldest,
i'm supposed to be strong enough to work it all through on my own.

i prefer my life fucked up thanks =P
haha noooo.
i don't know.

i'm drained right now,
i don't know if you can tell by reading this,
but it's almost hard to type,
i'm sooo tired.


i had a dream i was in paris,
and i was sitting in a mall or something
and talking to this girl who was trying to get me to speak better french
and i was doing really well,
and i knew all that i was actually saying
just interesting.
i need to get my french finished.


i have a bio final exam,
that scared me a touch.
and i donno if i mentioned but when i found out i've got a midterm and final in french
i nearly burst into tears =P

we'll see,
i'm sure i'll do fine.


aughhh tiiiiired.
mrowl.

i have to ask still if S can spend the night friday.
i'd really like him too =P
hahaha obvvsss.

it's actually funny,
some days on my period i feel sexually starved !
but other days i'm like .. thank god i'm on my period.
xD

i should be done tomorrow though,
 think i'm getting my "trick" day today.
do any of you get that ?
the day before the last day of your period
you have no flow whatsoever,
so you think it's done
BUT IT'S REALLY NOT AND IT SNEAKS UP ON YOU
and then you get it for one day and you're done =P



i missed my mommy.

i wonder if i can swing it so she can meet S before she goes ?

it's our one-month today =P
i'm not one to count weeks and months really.
but it's my personal record,
i've never dated someone longer than 2 weeks.

i'm tired.
i need a shower.
i need to drop another 15 pounds.
grawrl.


i find it strange that i've dropped almost 10 pounds,
and i look hardly any skinnier.
though i guess that's a good sign
meaning it's all coming off everywhere evenly ?

except i've calculated
that i only have 5 pounds to lose off my torso and arms
and then 10 off of my hips thighs and calves.
cuz that's where all my weight sits xD

blech.

GOODBYE FAAAAT !
*waves*

Whoaaaaa

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

I can't even explain the mega mondo fucking energy spurt i'm going through rightnow
i don't understand it because like i was sooo dead earlier
like normal
and then i was doing socio and i was like hm i can't concentrate
must be because this is like 3rd grader stuff (no joke)

AND OH MY FUCKINGGG GODDD
energyenergyenergyenergyyyy

actually to explain this,
i'll just tell you what i posted as my FB status.

I'm so cool i just ran around my kitchen making zoom noises and using my sweater as airplane wings. And scared my kitten.

xD

ENERGYYYY
OMGGGGG

haha i duhno this is wiiiierddddd ! xD

i wish i could show you all the funny things i'm saying to poor S
haha but it's okay cuz he's being a retard and gaming so FUCK HIM
=D haha yeeee
omg omg omg omg
guess what
no really guess

ARE YOU GUESSSINGGG !?!?

haha i'm energetic.

YUHSSSHH.


anyways.
i'm thinking fast is good thing ?
mwahaha.

wow this is scary energy burst.
maybe i'm bi-polar ? xD


SORRY
no thinspo to match my MEGA ENERGY LEVELLLLL
NGRAWWWWWER.

haha i feel like a combination of Goku being all Super Sayan
and DESTRUCTORRRR from futurama.
xD

crazy ?
YES.